~~Regaining Wings~~

How do I fly when I've walked

This exact same path

For my entire journey?

How do I fly when I don't know how?

My wings were robbed from my back.

My heart was shattered and torn.

My body was beaten and abused.

My mind was splintered apart.

My soul was shaken.

I was unmade--

How do I fly

When I can't breathe?

How do I regain my wings

Without you teaching me

How to jump off the cliff--

And never let myself down?

How do I fly

Without you throwing me up?

How do I live

Without you helping me stand?

I've never been fine.

I've never been alright.

I've never been well.

So how do I fly?

What happened to my wings?

When did I lose my reason?

When did I lose myself?

When did it stop making sense?

How do I regain my wings

When I don't even know

If I lost them, or not?

If I lost them, did I give them away?

What part of me did I trade

For the love that has destroyed me?

How many times

Have I wished for love?

How many times

Has that wish been answered?

It's been answered too many times.

Each answer's cost is a single feather

From the wings

I gave away.

Each love's cost

is a single angel feather.