Half-Mad Writer here.
~By the way, I have declared that as my brand-new online name.~
So, I recently took a test on whether or not I have Dissociative Identity Disorder. And, well, I scored 80, 84, and 87.
According to the test, if you score THIRTY OR HIGHER, you have a higher association with DID.
Scoring largely more than fifty points over...shouldn't surprise me....
Does it surprise anyone else? So, I guess we finally know what's going on. It is a lot different from Figments--I really am insane....
Multiple personalities.
Alters.
Other me's.
Other minds, one person....
One...effing...person.
How crazy am I?
Very.
Well, at least I'm not alone. A friend took the test, and scored 65. Another friend is Figmented--hi, Justin!--and he's awesome. He has: Falfru, James, Jay, Eric, Caine, All, Alrick, and Jonathon. (Needless to say, texts conversations with him are very interesting.)
He's a sweetheart....He really is. They're very off people, but they amuse me greatly--which is all that really matters.
I have been...losing myself ever so slightly. Losing time, memories, sleep. I can't control myself anymore. I'm getting scared....I shouldn't be slipping. I should be so much stronger. So much better. But I guess I'm not, and I can't even say what's wrong. At first glance, everything should be fine! And why aren't they?
I have an amazing lover.
Shawn's trying to visit.
I have amazing friends.
My classes are going fine.
I'm HAPPY.
So why am I slipping?
Why am I losing time?
I don't know....I'm worrying about it...
To keep my worries at bay, I've taken up an impressive challenge--the Blogging from A to Z April Challenge. So I'm getting ready to write 26 posts, in the order of the alphabet, based on a topic starting in the letter of the alphabet. So, it's going to be a tiny bit difficult.
And no.
I WILL NOT BE WRITING ABOUT XYLOPHONES.
I will be writing about X....nevermind.
You will find out....
Teehee.
I think my life's going to go okay, actually...
I have amazing friends.
Incredible people.
Wonderful dreams...
And I'm going to be just fine...
I've just lost my mind.
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