~~Reality~~

Is this what I wanted?

I couldn't decide

If it was right, or wrong--

But now I can't hide.

In you, I try to confide

All the secrets we kept from you--

I'm sorry I lied,

And said the feelings were true.

Reality won't let me be,

And I can't maintain this

Bittersweet ecstasy--

I didn't choose this.

I didn't choose to let you lose--

I didn't choose to let you know.

I never realized how far

It would--and could--go.

I never believed in you

Being able to keep me safe.

Now I'm stuck here, in your arms,

And my collar's begun to chafe.

I'm stuck at your feet--

Won't you let me be?

I couldn't leave if I tried....

Don't you dare let me be.

I don't want to face reality.

It's you I need.

I'm crying here,

Don't let me bleed.

I'm dying here,

Don't let me be.

I don't want to face

A reality with only me for company.

I never really understood

What it could mean to love,

But now I think I understand:

Loving means a light in the sky above.

A light in the stormy sky

Where angels wait to cry.

I wonder if we can fly,

As I wait for the pain to die....

Loving you, and loving me,

Are things I think I can do.

I promise I will try--

I will try for you.