~~Dear Shawn~~

Hello, my sweet man.

Hello, my bitter darling.

I wish to see your smile.

I wish to hear your laugh.

Your arms offer

A strange sanctuary.

Your eyes gift me

With a soothing look.

I make you laugh,

And I hope I make

Your dreams

Be as good as you make mine.

Dear Shawn, you are more

Than you think you are.

In my eyes, you are lovely--

My glorious dark god.

You, with your heart so dark,

Still shine with acceptance:

Even if there is pain,

I will always remain.

I can't go, and I know

You won't leave unless

I tell you to go.

Could I ever let you go?

We came further than we

Ever thought we could.

Impossible coincidences,

And stranger circumstances.

Blind luck, or the work of fate?

True love, or three years as friends?

Days fade to weeks, my love--

Let's watch the years fade, too.

Grow old with me, please.

Promise me you will.

I know you would not fight to live--

So don't expect me to stay.

I'll follow you, as blind as that might be,

Through this world--or into

What ever comes after here.

I won't stay if you don't.

Dear Shawn, expect me

To grow and change with you.

I'll stay, I'll grow, I'll improve--

I swear I will be yours.

I'll be yours, if you

Forever stay mine.

Hear my words, hear my voice--

It's whispering through my poetry.

Calling to you through

A computer screen.

Picture in your mind:

The pair of us,

As perfectly imperfect

As fate could have desired.

So very wrong--

Could we be more right?

The pair of us,

Curled up asleep together.

Your arms around me,

My hands warm against your chest.

I miss you, my heater.

I am cold here without you.

I can't wait to go home,

Where you wait for me.

Dear Shawn, I hope you smile.

I hope you know

I don't care what you hide.

I can accept you--blindly, or not.

We've closed the distance.

We've found the right path.

We're together now,

And together we'll stay.