~~Ian...~~

To me, your name

Is the perfect thing to murmur

An incantation, a spell

A Promise

You are the Promise

After so long

Drifting forsaken and forsaking

I stumbled upon you

And god knows I clutched at you

You kept me afloat

When the waves of the world

Wrenched at me and turned

Me inside out

Boiling black

A tsunami of tea leaves and tears

You, you dragged me

Through my worst times

Lifted me up

Gave me the will power

To shine and shiver and sing

I know you always say

That I am your light

But you are mine

Even though right now I'm drifting

Lost and confused, everything

An illusion spawned

By my pain-addled mind

Something I can't quite trust

But what I want to run to

Whenever I think of you

My heart is clutched

By a warm hand

A Promise of feeling

A Promise of more

A Promise of something different

Something real

God knows I have done wrong

Lied and hid from you

The one person I should never hide from

But yet you're here

You accept me, for all my pain-flooded

Tossing and turning self

My moments of forced laughter

Delirious abandon brought on by exhaustion

You accept me, and Ian

Ian, love...

That's all I ever want.

I want to love you

I want to hold you

I want to be there with you....

I want you

I will always want you.