~~In Deference to my Disease~~

Ah loneliness! Such an easy thing

To claim when I get

Into trouble I can't escape

All the needless prattling

On and on about right and wrong

Listening endlessly

To the same song

Living through the night, longing for dawn

All the endless procession

Of the same old excuse

God only knows when I'll realize

That it is no use!

I can't excuse my behaviour

For I've been deemed insane

I can't excuse my lies

For it's all a silly silly game

It's all a silly game

That's all it will be

And it's all I desire

If I play it well, I might escape from my shame

I hate this vivid feeling

That comes when I cry

Such a superior broken agony

It makes me realize I never did die

My life, it never ended

Myself, I never hated it

All I seek is attention

And god knows I'll go far to get it

My disease, if it can be called that

Is a disease I put on myself

A form of self-defence through self-destruction

Burying my heart on its shelf

The childhood I no longer possess

Has now faded from my memory

Even my recent torments

Are passing away from me

How long will it take

For me to forget

All the decisions

I've come to regret?

In deference to my disease

I bow as it passes on by

A tip of my hat

To every forgotten lie

I should move on now

It no longer matters

It is over with, said and done

I will no longer shatter

Farewell, former memories

Farewell pain I held so close

You're out of my mind now

To a place where the internet knows

Found in old blog entries

Journal entries

And Facebook statuses

My blog surely hosts

A great many memories

Good things, and bad

Farewell, nightmares

There's fun to be had.