~~False Affection~~

I talk oddly, I know

One of the oddest things

Is calling people "Love."

I mean, why do I do that?

Do I ever mean it?

In a way, I wish I didn't

Causes trouble, it does

Makes them believe I care

When all they really are

Is a shield against the loneliness

And the loneliness and I

Are good friends, to be fully honest

I am used to her company by now

Words keep me company

Bitter bulwarks against the madness

Do I call people "love"

Intending that they fall for me?

I'm not certain

I hope I don't...

They'll only end up hurt

Honestly, I would prefer it

If I was less honest

Kept a few things secret

I've said so much that I

Am truly ashamed of

But maybe doing this

Makes me face it

Ah, a revelation

I've faced before

But I am now quite off track

How many people do I call:

Love, sweetheart, hun

And more?

I am not certain

It just slips out

Do I mean all this affection?

I'm not sure I do

I mean, it's interesting

But it can be pretty bad

If they start believing it....