~~Pain~~

I used to think I liked it

A tinge of cruelty melded with gentleness

I used to think I preferred it

Feeling owned instead

Of clinging to tattered ownership

But now, I think I've changed

I want to feel loved

I know what pain feels like

And I don't feel pleasure any more

I want to feel loved.

Is that so wrong?

To want to now be an equal?

Be...Be at the same level

The ones I love are at

Not sitting at their feet

I want to be held tight

And comforted

Not like I'm just a toy

I don't want that any more

Are there any complaints?

I hope not

If you care about me

Like you say I do

Then you'll understand

And let me grow

I can't stay that way

Not the girl I used to be

I want to grow, I want to heal

Is that honestly so wrong?

Is it so wrong to want to be free?

I hope it's not

Because right now I think I've found someone

I think I've found someone good to me

Who will always good to me

And will never cause me pain

God I hope I'm right

Because I'm putting my trust in him

I want to be with him

And...And if he wants to be with me

Then I'll be with him, and no one else.