~~Where Do I Go?~~

I feel like running once again

I can't stop my heart from racing

I want to go but who knows when

It'll be easy sailing?

Every bit of me hurts

From all the running I've done

The rain pours down in brief spurts

Failing to wash away the burns of the sun

No matter where I go

Can I ever escape it?

No, I guess I never will be able to let go

Of the remnants I keep of it

Of our time together, so long before now

Oh god, I can't forget this at all

Please someone just tell me how

How do I run before I fall?

Curling here, a stuffed toy

Pressed against a slowing heart

I think of all the joy

And try not to start

Crying once again for us

For all the pain

All the misplaced trust

Wishing I could see you again

Oh god, Adam why

Why do I still wish you were here

Why do I wish I could call you back with a cry

Instead of being filled with so much fear

Fear that you are gone

And I'll never again see you smile

I wish I could bring you back home

I'd give anything just to spend a while

Curled back up with you

Talking and laughing like we did before

I'd tell you about how I play Magic, and I know you

Would come barrelling down the door

Just to see me again....To see me smile, hear me laugh

I know you miss that, too

I still feel your ghostly touch

I would love to ask you

If you feel mine?

Do you feel my lips

Brush yours, tears a ghostly shine

Across my lips?

I hope you do

Because in the end I really miss you

And no matter where I go, I can't find you

Won't you let me run back to you....?