~~Someone I Used to Hurt: For Adam~~

Somehow it seems like the longing

To feel your arms around me

Never is going to fade

Your name, your voice--the wind is singing

Whispering to me to go back

Erase time and plead with you

I wonder if you'd let me return?

Let my body make up for what I lack?

I know it's not worth it though

That my days should slip away from you

You dweller of the night

Should I not have let you go?

I guess I did run at last

Pick up my bags, leave behind only dust

And a thousand shattered shards of trust

Leaving behind everything that had passed

You, who had fought so hard to keep me

Would have done anything to make me smile

You turned on the light when I would hide

And made me forget my agony

And even though you never could hold me

You never could touch me

And you never kissed me

Why is it that I still feel you with me?

I'm looking at you through glass

Wondering where you're headed

I hope you're finding your light

Maybe someone with a better ass

It seems so silly to pray for you

An angel, praying for her demon

That had caused her so much heartbreak

When instead she should hate you

And I guess I really can't hate anyone

Not any of those who have hurt me

If I hurt, and was hurt, by anyone else

It was never by someone

Someone I didn't trust

I give my trust so thoughtlessly

Offer affection in hope for comfort

In this dark world with so many unjust

You're someone I used to hurt

And someone I know I've driven mad

You fed my ego, never knowing it was fake

And now I wonder if anyone can really hurt

Me, this tiny Canadian girl

Aspirations of a book store dancing in her mind

And a pointy hood atop her head

Man, how many thoughts whirl

Through my mind?

I wish I could calm down

Because every time I think

You come back to mind

I'm not saying sorry this time

Just saying hello, and asking if you can smile

And wondering if you can hold me for a while

Before I finish this rhyme....